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Just wanted to share, i've been addicted to Glee this past few months, and now, i got another series to be addicted too. Modern Family. Yes, it's funny kasi eh, try watching it. Its a very light series, comedy and lessons in one. Having said that, I think im gonna go and watch it now so I could catch up in its season 2. Hmmm,that made me realize, i've been missing a lot of shows lately. Ellen, top chef, gossip girl..what else. Whatever! HAHAHAHAHAH! Well, gotta appreciate it. If im so busy with tv series that means i dont a have life outside that box! I have a career in progress, yah know. Got it? Gotta go! :)

BUCKET LIST

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PLACES TO GO AND THINGS TO HAVE BEFORE AGE WHAT :)

***task already accomplished.

in random order:

Philippine Tour ( visit at least 5 of below before 27)

***Bohol, ***Boracay,Palawan (Puerto Princesa, Coron) Camiguin, Davao, Cebu, Cagayan de Oro, Sagada,*** Mindoro (Puerto Galera), Ilocos Pagudpud, Anawangin, Potipot, Banawe Rice Terraces, Pansanjan Falls/Maria Cristina Falls, ***Baguio, ***Bataan Dambana ng Kagitingan

Philippine Hotel Tour ( check in at least 5 of below before 27)

***Manila Diamond Hotel, Edsa Shangri La, Makati Shangri La,

***Sofitel, Hyatt, Manila Peninsula, Dusit Thani

Asian Tour ( visit at least 5 of below before 28)

Wall of China, Universal Studios in Singapore, Taj Mahal, meet Ella Chen and Wu Chun ( hehe! ) , Thailand, Japan, Korea, Hong Kong Disneyland

Honda City Black (before 29) or

Toyota Altis ( Black before 29)

4 Bedroom House ( before 35)

anywhere in: Cavite, Bulacan, Batangas, or Laguna

USA Tour (Before 30)

Las Vegas, Universal Studious, Disney Land, Washington, Chicago, Seattle, Glendale, Ellen de Generes Show, Ceasar's Palace, Hawaii

Ride a plane (before 25)

***Ride a boat (before 23)

Get married ( before 28, shet i only have 3 + years!)

Have 2 kids ( before 30)

***Laptop (before 25)

***Professional Make Up Set (before 25)

experience Brazilian Waxing (before 25, shet malapit na)

Our own Piggery and Poultry Business

backyard ( before 25)

Provincial lot ( before 30)

Our own Catering Business ( before 30)

Enroll at a Dance Class ( before 26)

Eat exotic food ( before 28)

any: tabilok, crispy salagubang, uod.

Enroll at a baking class ( before 30)

Write a story to MMK about my Father starring Dolphy ( before 25)

Collect 8 swimsuits ( before 27)

Collect 20 shoes ( before 28)

Change wardrobe ( after 25)

The plunge ( Bohol ) Ohhh.. scary!

LIST ABOVE MAY NOT BE UPDATED BY THE TIME READER CAME ACROSS BY THIS BLOG.

Anger Management

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If there's such a subject, im probably one of the best in class. Im quite transparent, at home and at work. But anywhere aside from the two, goodluck if you'll ever feel my anger. It keeps burning inside of me.

Family, (including my Kokok) officemates and few close friends can really tell once im in that mood. Yes im Ms. Congeniality most of the time but im also human. i get irritated and pissed too. But i kinda mastered the art of anger management. That way i see it, i call it, the Fake Set Up.

So, am i a fake person? NOt really. NOw that I admitted publicly that i am fake, its like exposing my true self. Therefore, revealing my true identity. I define fake set up as: i feel negative inside but i radiate positivity outside or most of the time silence. Just being quiet. ( so be extra careful whenever i am silent or emotionless) Now why do i do that? Simple. Because Im afraid. Afraid of myself once i burst out of anger. I tend to say a lot of negative things whenever I am mad. And most of the time, one may get hurt of what im gonna say because it is the truth. Only a few can handle it. That's why i got few close friends and A lot of so-so friends. Hmmm. ( Definition of few close friends: around 20-30 people. Few noh! hahaha! )

Hey. once you see me in that state, press it. Trigger me. Because i believe its going to give strength to our bond. Arguments make people grow. If truth be told, i like arguments. If im proven wrong, i'll grow. And if i prove someone else wrong, both of us will grow. BUt honestly, im not always brave enough to start or press an argument. Because, not all arguments build or gives growth. Its a risk too, you know? You are risking what could be something special. So what exactly am i pointing out? To argue is to choose to grow and to choose to build a stronger bond. So, if you feel like building a longer and lasting relationship with someone, dont be afraid to press an argument. Just be sure to open your mind and heart and both of you will grow and will build a true bond of friendship.

Yeah,Right.

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What to say. before getting my blogging materials and settings right, i totally forgot what i was about to blog today. oh yeah. The things that i wanted to have before the year ends.

Why do i want to buy these stuffs and save more money and go to a lot of places and save more money again? ridiculous! Good thing is, whenever i calculate my cash on hand and expenses, i still manage to have a bit extra. hehe! but then, it wont really help me save the big bulk,right? here's abit of everything for those gossip girls whose been following me secretly. ( come on, yes you. :)

Just last September ( i guess) i planned of getting myself a pomerian pup! Got so excited, i googled a lot about pompoms! Then, realization bit me. Im not really into dogs! I am even scared of dogs! Heck i dont wanna clean their poops and give them bath and take them for walk and blah blah blah. So, im not gonna get one YET. (get that?) So, since im not gonna get a pompom, i'll settle for a pair of bunnies na lang! And the hermit crab that i saw in SM Megamall ( i saw the bunnies @ bioresearch, so that was like seeing two pets in one place.) But pets can wait. Because i booked a bohol trip for two for january 2,3 and 4. Yup. That's for our 4th year anniversary. We like going to different places on our anniversaries and dining at different restaurants every monthsary. Kinda pleasurable. That's why im not really surprised if a couple of witnesses would imitate what we're doing. (goodluck sayo.)

Now, this November already bought 2 dresses, waiting for the make up brushes and the palette to be delivered. And oh! Got booked to boracay naman this time, with the officemates! Hahahah! (GOsh, why cant i really be serious about my work outs and diet plan ) Plus, showing of Harry Potter this month and Chronicle of Narnia late Nov or early December. Grabe.

And for CHristmas, im planning to celebrate the holidays sa Baguio naman. Want to experience picking strawberries and wala lang, yung cool breeze sa Baguio just because its Christmas time once again. :)

Geeze, there's something new about me.

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Okay. So this is not exactly the typical blog that I'll do. Im trying to cut off all the crap and bs's in my life right now. As in no room for it. Nope. I wont let my mind go there. As my boss would always tell. Dont go into the light. As my team would say. Haha. Funny. Right. But they are right. They are most of the time right.

I just came home from work and i feel so heavy that's why im in front of my handy-dandy blog notepad. Got nothing to do on a saturday morning, actually. Just listening to my old sentimental music and yeah, typing my heart out.

This week was one kinda tough. THIS MONTH actually. I got sick, been absent from work for a week. Im not even sure if i wrote a blog about it, but nah. wag na lang. dont wanna remind myself that im no longer THAT healthy. you know what i mean.

What else. Ah. Of course, being under probation, those sick days were not yet paid, so aside from the medical expenses, i also got salary deduction. Shit happens, alright. What else. Oh yeah, it's my papa's 4th death anniversary. So what to do? As i do it yearly, i always pull out all the drama and cry. The only difference is that, i kinda suppress it a bit. But you know the saying that, the more you suppress it, the more it shows. It proved itself, yet again. What's worse, it got me stuck, affecting my work too. Good thing i have found true friends in my team mates. Gahd. They helped. But then, I still need to talk to my boss/coach/not-really-a-father-but-is-treated-that-way-still/employer. It's like he's the major go-to/talk-to guyin my second world which is my worl. It still amazes me how our company works. Cant explain it though. Hmmm. there.

Anyways, its not really bad you know. Well to start with, my mom is kinda in good state right now. She will never forget my dad, but then, fortuitous events will happen and there's nothing else that i can do. I mean, if she's happy, who am i to stop her. Right. And besides, we somewhat benefit from it too. So, its not really bad. Period. Secondly, omigosh, i wasnt able to travel, as i have planned it in my planner, but i guess, everything happens in its own time. So.... COME QUICK 2011!!!! hahahaahah! Bohol for our 4th anniversary (booked through a travel agency), Boracay on July with officemates (booked.) and im wishing,hoping and praying that my plan would come true, that i may celebrate my birthday in Coron,Palawan or in Puerto Prinsesa. (still waiting for a seat sale! ) So im pretty much excited for next year. Now i know how it feels to get yourself a plan ahead of you. OH! I forgot another news. Bad news though. Kokok and the family will be moving out soon. It's most likely that they wont be celebrating the holidays in halcon anymore. So as for me, if i can drop by there, i take my chances. Lotsa memories we had there eh. so there. Its the 30th of october, in 2 days, november na. Time flies fast indeed.

Oh, just to get you more excited, this thanksgiving, we're planning to have something like the amazing race, and oh yes we're so excited. Bring it on guys! :)

I'll try to somewhat update this site more often too! I only have like 2 months left for this year! Im hoping for a greater year next year! PUH-LEESE! :) byers!

Never too late

Yeah. Its never gonna be too late. I didnt have the chance to linger on my thoughts because im too preoccupied with work lately. I need to catch up because first, i slacked off for being absent from work for a week because of my left kidney. Demet. Im not the regular alcoholic drinker and yet my kidney's over-reacting. Second, i got bills coming in and plans going on in my mind. So, money never really sleeps. Hehe. And lastly, my mom's got something new to boot. Im not gonna elaborate on that, because this blog's gonna be about the best man in my life, and probably, the best man in my mom's life and heck, the best man in everybody's life in our family. (labo.)

Papa.

4 years. Yes. 4 years. How's that? Time heals all wounds, that's what they say. I say, am I diabetic? 'Cause my wound never seems to heal.

I always remember my father. The way he showered us with his undying love. I watch tv and i see fathers abusing their children. I remember my Papa, fanning us all throughout the night whenever brown out strikes. He gladly watches us sleep while thunderstorms do their thing on a very cold, and rainy night.

I walk my way, passing through kids who barely eat. Memories of Papa will come rushing through. How he taught me to eat extra ordinary food and how to eat those satisfactorily. How he opens oyster shells and clams for me. How he breaks crab claws for me and how he gets the insides of bulalo, placing it on a spoon, ready for my mouth to take.

Realizing not all kids get the chance to go to school, and i reminisced how my Papa would ask if I my Mama already gave us money as baon, and he'd hold our hands with something extra for us to buy whatever we want to buy in school aside from buying ourselves something for us to eat. Reminisced how he surprised us by giving us our first cellphones all together in one shot when i was still a freshman in high school and my siblings still in elementary. Remembered how my classmates would commute or walk under the heat of the sun after a very hot Sunday afternoon after ROTC, while I remember seeing my Papa in his usual parking space just outside the university. Yeah, waiting to fetch me. Not to mention the effort of bringing me back to and fro whenever I have long gaps in between of my dismissal and P.E. class. Pampered much. I can say. Spoiled to those who sees these are not necessary.

But envy me/us all you want. Because we got the best man that there can ever be. And now, how I wish I could return the pampering Pa!

I still miss you, Papa. And I promise you, I'll go places, with the whole family. Was just hoping you were with us. I miss you big time. I guess everyone else does.

This is it.

Wow. Days passed so fast, i didnt even had the time to unwind through blogging.

I already had it. THAT one job application that made me pause and think, IS THIS IT?! I started crying in the elevator going down to meet kokok and cry even harder. I cant believe it! I'll be training for this job. After a month, I'll be evaluated, and see if I can fit in the team. I was asking myself, what's with the team? And now, on my 4th week as a trainee, now I know what's with the 'team'.

I used to think that i need to squeeze in myself in this solid team. As my co-trainees would put it, it was like trying to penetrate into something that is so solid and covered. Hmmm, that's tough. You know why? Let me just say, I found the counterpart team of Akdang-Buhay, only LESS Drama, LESS CRAP and more money. That's just basically it. Oh, let me not forget that servings of care, love and the sense of having a second family, for real. Hmmm, too early to say this. Im not even IN, in the real sense. Im going to have my evaluation on tuesday. And whatever happens, I know, im doing what i can to hold on to this. I wanted this to be my last. My forever job. :)

Kokok,on the other hand, has been very busy with his work himself. I am just hoping that everything would be fine for us two.

To wrap things up, AUGUST was really crazy! ( its still august though) Kai's baby, Bebang, just had her 1st bday last aug5. And me and my girlfriends had more dates than the usual. had breakfast meetings and just yesterday, we celebrated Jessica's birthday. And we're even planning to go out of town. :) So excited.

On the other hand, i chose not to hear anything about jam from em, told her, if im to receive any news abt the baby, i want it to come from jam and not from her.

I lose some, i gain some. That's life. It isnt fair (as i always try to tell to myself) But its not all BAD too. I get money, i use it for bills. And I'll try to work harder to have more money so I could have more to share and to spend and save for myself and for my family.

Im hoping to enroll myself in a dance class before this year ends. And, because of the work outs, I see myself losing 10-15lbs come November. CHeers to hardwork, BS's, and craps, FOOD and drinks and bad and good things, and everything in between. :)