Back at it

 Wow. I got in again after so long! been planning on going back to blogging since its so painful for me to talk these days. oh. So maybe i could talk about Trigeminal Neuralgia now? lol. so there. I guess i need to organize my thoughts first. Ive been reading my past posts, and those were really terrible! lol. But you dont really mind those kind of stuff when you are writing on your journal, yes? Thats the point.

Maybe, ill do more of this soon? or, would it be much better if I send it from my other email to another?

Do I even have readers? :) 

Ill try to post some more. :)

Diary

Was cleaning out my closet earlier, and, just noticed those notebooks that look so familiar to me. Yeah right. My diarIES. Eversince elementary, i've been confiding on my handy-dandy until sophomore year in college, I guess. What made me stop? Blogging. Kidding. Truth? I cant even remember. But, i would want to continue writing on my diary again. Its just that, im busy nowadays. really now? Usually whenever Im tired but too eager to write/express myself, its easier to just type things down. everythings just so clean and perfectly written. BUt maybe, what im missing writing on my diary is the feeling. You know,i kinda remember the feelings just seeing how i wrote some of my thoughts in it. Whether Im angry, happy, excited or heart-broken, i can definitely see immediately through my penmanship.

So, tried scanning my old diary. Tried checking what the finder might know if that someone takes a peek. *blush* my scholastic disappointment, my almost-suicidal attempt due to THAT disappointment, success, fame, rigid trainings, and most part of it? Matters of the heart. Sheeesh. That was so like me, during elementary till high school to early college years. I would definitely melt once someone reads this. But yeah, why did i stopped?

1. People in the house are more keen now. I mean, under the bed? my closet? my bookshelf? Nah, they'll know where it is. They clean the house almost everyday.

2. I lost interest. BUt im still blogging, right?

3. I changed. Yeah. that's it. I changed. a lot. and maybe a lot of things already changed too. I probably judged it as something not worthy of my writing effort anymore, but maybe, someday, i'll get it again.

I'll let you know once im back at the track. but for the meantime, i guess i need to find a safer place for my old diaries.

i think im back.

stronger. tougher. prettier. CHUBBIER. HAHAHAHAH! kidding! will post again soon! ;0

The year that would just pass me by

My 2010 didnt really started well. Got so many things unsolved and got so many craps that I cant even handle. Left past job, encountered money problems and had issues from so many angles cant even put my finger on it. Lost old friends, gained new friends, reconnected and lost communication. Everything happened this year. And what a year this was!

This year was dull, i thought. Problems just keeps coming back, i thought. And most of all, happiness was out of reach, i thought. Got everything all wrong.

August, got the job that I've been waiting for. Met great and strong people. But most of all, got inspired by our Boss, David. He was the one who gave everybody in the team the chance and the break that we've been longing for that we werent able to find in our previous jobs. And this time, we vowed to make everything better and bigger. This job gave me the chance to travel a bit, again. Made me experience again, what its like to be ABLE.. again.

But God, who is all righteous and knowledgeable provided me with the things and the people that I really needed to move on.

I want to thank my mama, who is ever strong too. My siblings, for the inspiration. My kokok, for the support. All of the above gave me sufficient 'kick' that made me push. It's never easy, but its never impossible.

My kuya joel and my mama aya, God knows how thankful i am for having you guys around, for always opening and offering opportunities, whatever, whenever. we love you too.

To my bestfriends, you know who you are. Things are not settled was it? Im hopeful for the coming year to give us the chance to iron things out. Just the same, both of you are included in my 2010.

to my girlfriends, jessica, kai and nhel. thank you for being the support that i never really called in. cheers for more years of friendship! :)

to my pax family, im looking forward to our adventures next year!

to my second family, (kokok's) thank you.

to geno and bee: hoping to being with you guys soon. :)

to everyone that i wasnt able to mention: sorry, but thank you!

to dddydc, thank you for being an angel. for being of great help to us. We'll be forever grateful for having you. Praying for more years to spend with you!

And most specially, Papa, wherever you are, you would never be forgotten. And I will be forever thankful for having you as my father. You will always be the BEST FATHER in the whole wide world. And believe me, as compared to a lot of fathers that i know, you are really the best. We LOVE you so much, and we miss you so much!

Oh God, 2010 wasnt that bad after all.

I am happy i am stronger. I am happy i am capable. I am happy that I could do better things this coming year.

Farewell 2010, Welcome 2011!

nyahahaha!

yeah, this is what i looked like, taking a break from my dramatic blog, while having my pedicure, manicure done. got shorter nails though!

What's in my bag?

Oh-kay. decided i needed some time to break away from my dramatic thanksgiving blog. so here's a blog that has nothing to do with anything or anyone but me.

Was asked what can be seen inside my bag?

A lot of things actually. That's why a small bag can never work for me. So here's a peek inside my bag, with or without an event to go to.

For normal days:

Girbaud wallet : contains everything, cards, different sorts of ID's, money (err) memorable pictures, unexchanged dollarS ( yes, with an S, hehe), old and new atms and receipts that I cant even remember when was it issued to me.

Lipbalm: i used to use Chapsticks then Nivea and now, im loving Maybelline.

Make up: omg omg omg! kasalanan to ng Megaworld, now i ALWAYS have make up in my bag.

and just recently, i included a set of makeup brushes too! so to sum it all up, i got a new set of make up and make up brushes. So see, why i need a big bag to stack up all my everyday

necessities?

Belle de Jour Planner: once you see mine, you'll really think that I ALWAYS use it. sobrang gamit na gamit. bugbog, kung baga. Now Im thinking how i'll take better care of my new planner this 2011. But for sure, just like my other planners, sobrang gamit na gamit ko din 'to.

Gtec, .03 - i've been using this pen since 2nd or 3rd year high school! OMG! they can give me a loyalty award anytime!

coin purse: this is where all my coins go.. ooops..

lrt AND mrt ticket: yep. i always have BOTH.

eyeglasses AND shades: being nerdy and classy in just one pack.

baby wipes and alcohol and sanitizer: yes im no longer a baby, but i like it when i get my hands cleaned for being dirty for some reason. now this reminds me of Emma Pillsbury (glee,guidance counslor)

cellphone: can be occasionally seen inside my bag, in the pockets of my bag, in my pocket, in the computer area, in the car, anywhere! shet. could this be the reason why kokok would always nag me for not taking care of his gift? sheessshhhh....

ipod: its always present, however, its not always fully charged. so sometimes i use it, sometimes i dont

camera: my super handy-dandy camera! but just like my ipod, i dont use it everytime.

cologne: you what's this for. right?

comb: for my hair. and no, i dont let anybody borrow my comb. it's like lending your toothbrush, more or less.

napkin: just in case the girl thing arrives unexpectedly, or if somebody else's visitor arrives. hehe!

i think that's it.

but if i need to attend to a formal event, i use smaller bags which only contains of:

lipbalm, face powder and cheek tint,mascara, some money and my atm, cellphone, ipod, camera, comb and tissue.

that's pretty much everything.

now i can go back to my thanksgiving blog. :)

Just a flashback.

Okay. So I caught myself doing nothing except munching cap n crunch and rice krispies with my fave fruits (strawberry and peaches) on this so-so yogurt. ( Ang hirap kasi wala naman maxadong branches and White Hat and Red Mango) nagtataka nga ako kay gela, AYAW nya daw ng yogurt, nung una nyang tinikman tong yogurt na 'to. Pero ngayon, everytime na meron ako, tumitikim sya ulit and looks like, she likes it already. unbelievable! hahahahaha! now no one can ever contest my encouraging and influencing prowess! hahahahaah! :) oops, then naisip ko si theng, na kahit anong pilit ko, ayaw ng yogurt. BAHKET??? anyways...

It's already the 29th and in a few days, it's 2011 already. Indeed, time flies so fast. Im not gonna run down the highlights of my 2010 just yet. Just this December lang, because for sure, this December is the busiest December that I had since my father passed away, four years ago.

Last week of Cebu, was all about work. Cebu then client coming over, meaning good times with the Boss and the team. December came in, celebrating David's birthday ( the Boss ) and Paul's wedding, may i say, EXTRAVAGANT wedding. ( now i have a new criteria for my own wedding. It's scaring me a bit, but i think my groom would be more scared if he knew this. haha! ) Then the Chirstmas kicked in and got me. So Christmas shopping here and there and Christmas bondingS with the family. (take note of the "S") Oh! and before I forget, was able to book to Bohol for our anniversary too! and just before Christmas eve, I was able to book another trip to Puerto Princesa. That's why we got so much to look forward for this January 2011.

Thanks to the people who helped, but im not gonna drop names just yet, okay? Im reserving it for my final blog this year, will be posted exactly on new year's eve.

Oh,what to have on media noche Just remembered what we had last Christmas!

Bacon and hashbrowns and waffles and grilled steak, liempo and tilapia and spaghetti and chicken nuggets and two oh-so-sumptuous cakes from my fave cake shop ( actually, this shop is so special to me because i ALWAYS remember Munch and Cieds, we used to hang out in there! )

Okay. now imma stop. Because something just popped in my head right now. my expenses! $$$$$$!!!!! bills to pay for laptop, for bookings, thinking i just bought a new headset, and a lot of spendings just because its Christmas! Oh Christmas, what power you have to make me splurge this much!

I have plans of enrolling myself in a lyrical hiphop dance class around February, MAYBE after dancing with my former crew for Musicfest, legis/consaltia. ( its one. )